Today was the third day I spent with Sarah and Matthew. I'll be with them the rest of the week. It's been so good to be back with them - to remind them of my love and care for them and to hear of their commitment to never forget me.
In a way, it feels like I haven't left. I've gotten to do my favorite activity with them, read :)
Yet, there is something that feels decidedly different about being back in their life. They have grown and changed. They have also started bickering. It made my heart sad to listen to their fight. It seemed absolutely pointless and it felt impossible to stop. I did not really know who (if either) to reprimand.
Let me tell you, I don't think anything could make me feel more helpless then having these two (whom I love dearly) bicker as they did. It was a good kick in the pants for me. I can't control them; they are God's. And no matter how cool, calm and collected I may seem to grownups, there are still some kids who can shake me to the core and remind me of my utter helplessness before God.
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