Needy

The past four weeks I've been feeling more needy then I have in a while.

- I've felt a need for the Word - to have truth breathed into my life to be encouraged, built up, edified and convicted.
- I've felt a need for people - to have truth breathed into my life, be encouraged, exhorted and loved on.
- I've felt a need for prayer - a desperate need that some days I simply cannot make it through myself.

All of these things have not been fun for me. I've felt very dependent and not very competent (much pride there?). A good deal of this has bubbled over in frustration to others, especially today. As I was sitting talking with my mentor about my frustration, inadequacies and needs he looked at me and said "That's why we're part of a Body. That demonstrates the Body of Christ when we ask others for help, especially in areas of weakness."
Simple, sweet, beautiful truth. I usually get so bogged down and focused on the need that I forget to see what God is doing around me - that he's reminding me that I am not alone and can't do this alone, and that HE ultimately wants to meet my needs.
It basically hits me with this fact - it's ok to be needy but it's not good to deny one's neediness. Once we recognize the need, God ultimately desires to meet the needs (yet he so often and graciously does it through people). Yet without admitting to the need, I will never even realize that God desires to pour out blessings to meet those needs.
I must be willing to confess my needs, open my hands, and humbly receive what God has to offer.