Proper Perspective

I was an emotional bride. And I’ve felt entitled to a lot of those emotions. It’s one of the most stressful periods of your life preparing you for a day that will change the rest of your life. So what if I’m a little neurotic? And in that neurosis, through the process, I lost perspective on who God is and how he works; and now, I'm begging for God to restore it.

I believe he is slowly answering that prayer. Because, you see, the Scriptures provide perspective. Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, stand firm, be strong and courageous, God will work all things together for your good. These are all the perspective that I’ve so desperately needed, but have somehow let slip away. I haven't kept my focus on God's goodness and the work he is (and will do) through the engagement season, it’s been about me.

About my circumstances, my fits, my wants, my desires.

Let me say this in case you’ve missed – I maybe have NOT been the most fun person to be around this past semester. God has continued to be gracious and patient with me. He has continued to speak to me, to convict me, to pour out blessings upon me.

I in no way deserve this. According to the Bible, I deserve wrath, condemnation and judgement. Yet, God has set me free from condemnation… and not only that, he has provided for me in such abundant ways that I can say – I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil 4:13). This includes persecution, poverty, strained relationships, jobs, school work, and planning a wedding (and now, the first few months of marriage). But unless I sit in these truths, allow them to penetrate to my heart and soul… I will walk around with a poor perspective; a perspective riddled with worldly thinking, self-centeredness, and a god that is no God at all.

May God continue to draw me to the truth, and teach me those truths, and let them be hidden in my heart, that I may not sin against him (Psalm 119:11).