Sunday, May 20, 2012

God Loves Me, Even When I'm Mad

I woke up this morning a little mad at God. Yeah, I know it's not P.C., but it's how I was feeling. I spent time in prayer ending with a frustrated "help me." Ten or so minutes after that a friend called. A friend I haven't talked to in months who's on a different time zone - so while it was 9:30am here, it was 3:30am where she was. She told me simply God had placed me on her heart and asked how I was doing.
I just about broke down. I felt like God heard my cry and decided to answer it through my friend. I shared briefly with my friend how I was doing (not well) and she encouraged me, comforted me, and exhorted me.
She reminded me of the truth that nothing can separate me from God's love (Romans 8:38-39). She also called out some of my sin (perfectionism) and said what I feel so many friends have told me - I need rest.
After I got off the phone I was just astounded at how God moved. God, in his great love for me, placed a burden for me on the heart of a friend. He then gave her wisdom and insight to listen to me well, discern what was going on and then speak truth into my life. God loves me, and he chose to express that love through the body of Christ.
I am thankful for God's great love for me. I am still processing what my friend shared, my anger at God, and the fact that God "bothered" someone else for me, but am in thankful amazement at God's love.

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