At the seminar Uncomfortable Worship that was put on today by Josh Davis of Proskuneo I was encouraged to look at the various things that hinder worship such as sin and pride, among other things. I was encouraged by the biblical references and the whole concept that worship is costly and risky business - and we're not just talking corporately, we're also talking one's daily life of living for God's glory.
I was thinking of some of those discomforts and then an uncomfortable thought popped into my head - personal worship (i.e. quiet times) - have the potential to be costly. I tried to push the idea out of my head, but it stuck. I thought through my comfortable morning routine... and then I thought about areas I really wanted to grow in my relationship with God - such as praying God's Word. The only way to really do that, to really take the time and develop the discipline would be to sacrifice time and sleep.
I know that is really surface and petty, but there's part of me churning inside with my comfortable worship, my safe routine. I don't know if I trust God with providing the sleep I need or the wakefulness I would need to wake up earlier. There's also that deep down voice that tells me sacrifice and making myself uncomfortable in worship to go deeper with God will be pointless.
All I can say is that it's a good thing Lent is approaching as it is forcing me to seriously consider what sacrifice really looks like.
Great thoughts, Rachel. I say go ahead...try putting yourself out there and becoming uncomfortable (whether it is getting up early, losing sleep, whatever), and give God a chance to prove Himself to you. He IS faithful to supply you with EVERYTHING you need. He's promised that. I look forward to reading just how faithful He is in your life. ; )
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