I can sit here, on my nice little weekend away (hello, Atlanta) and get jealous. How crazy is that? Turning on my computer to do a little work, I flipped through facebook and thought "oh, don't I wish I was with _____, that looks like they had a lot of fun!" I'm amazed at how the devil can seek to allure me from the present where God has led me and what he has directed me to do.
It's funny, too, to realize how finite I am. I cannot be with everyone, doing everything, all the time. Yet something within me wants to. I do not want to recognize the truth of the smallness of my influence - that I am one person with limited time and energy. If I had it my way, I'd be everywhere, doing everything, with everyone (I never claimed to be sane).
Yet, God is wise and kind. He knows me inside out and where I will fall into pride. He knows that I am but one person and will pull me from various people to remind me that I am his and that I cannot do it all.
I know this is not everyone's struggle, I know that some people revolt at the idea of constantly being with people, but it's part of what I deal with.
The awesome thing is God knows each of us inside out and where our weaknesses are and he will stretch each of us if we are willing to embrace the lessons he presents us to keep us humble and fully his.
This is funny to me, because I often think when I see you chatting with yet another person, "Rachel is with everyone all the time. How does she do it?"
ReplyDeleteYou go, girl.
Oh, but do keep the humility. It's beautiful.