Thursday, October 13, 2011

Feeling Stuck, Getting Artificial, and Seeing Pride

I have been struggling with God's lack of movement in my life over the past few weeks. Not that God I haven't seen God work around me or experienced him growing and convicting me in various parts of me life, just that I feel he is quiet in one area; I feel like I have this blind spot and that has frustrated me over and over again; mostly because I don't know what that spot is or how to get rid of it. I feel stuck.
I hate feeling stuck. I don't like not knowing how to get rid of this blind spot and I don't like how it's kept me from fully embracing and surrendering to Christ.
Today God drew me to himself and gently showed me two things - that I had allowed this feeling to keep me from coming to him as often as I should; instead of the "stuckness" making me humbly seek him more I had decided to press on until I got it figured out (wow, do you hear the pride there?). Second, he revealed that it had kept me on artificial ground with those around me; instead of being open and honest that I was feeling stuck I was looking at what was going on around me and talking of that instead.
This is such a strong reminder that God wants all of us - wherever we are, however we are - and he is the one who will ultimately work and move us to greater depths of intimacy with him.

No comments:

Post a Comment