I really cannot believe that I came into the summer concerned about boredom and laziness. I mean yes, they are legitimate concerns... but sometimes I wonder how well I really know myself. I've gone through this week keeping busy. Maybe a little too busy. Have I done some random, crazy, fun things? Most definitely. Have I gone overboard in doing nothing? A little.
Have I obsessively poured over material and invested WAY too much on something? Yes. And that place is where I am struggling with. I like to have things "done" and this is something that cannot be "done" with. It is an ongoing process. So I must learn even more to step back from it, appropriately portion the time I am spending on it, and learn so much more to trust God with EVERY aspect of it. To learn that shutting off my brain and resting is a very good thing. Apparently, this is something God knows I need to learn - it is not just with school work where there is a clear "done" time that I need to learn to relax and trust God with things, it is truly with every aspect of my life. Every responsibility He has entrusted me with.
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