Waiting on God is a process that involves the heart, not just the mind. It is so easy, especially at seminary, to fall into the trap and believe that the more I learn and the more I know, the easier it will be to follow God and know where He is leading me. There is something that so easily stirs within myself to believe that some effort of my own can bring me to a place of rest. If I just learn this one more thing, if I just say these right words, if I just do this one more thing... but it is not about my effort at all. My striving attempts will utterly fail me; they leave me a mess.
So I content myself with trusting and believing God. I must remember that all I learn, all I do, will not really result in anything great or noteworthy. It is God working in and through me, it is my heart trusting in God, that He will work in His timing and in His way.
"The Christian always needs, when he has studied or heard God's Word, to cease from his thoughts, to put no trust in them, to awaken his heart to open itself before God, and seek the living fellowship with Him." (Andrew Murray, Waiting on God).
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