A friend came over to visit yesterday. She said she had been praying for me and wanted to come and chat. I welcomed her gladly, but wasn't quite sure as to the "what" of the content of the visit.
I had shared with this friend some of my struggles over the past few weeks and she felt God had given her insight. What it boiled down to was this - I wasn't trusting God (vague, huh?)
As she gently and lovingly prodded me, my soul began to stir and this simple truth surfaced - I have this internal fear that God's consistent, loving presence is not always with me. This causes fear, panic, and uncertainty.
I can sit in seminary classes and learn ABOUT God all day - but knowing God, experiencing God is often a different thing altogether. It's about opening your heart and allowing God the Holy Spirit to search those deep places, reveal sin, bring conviction, and grant repentance.
It's scary. It's not fun to face old emotions and fears (trust me, these are old and deep); but the result brings healing, security.
We have been given armor to fight in the battle (Ephesian 6) and we have been told by Jesus to abide in him (John 14). Whether it's using our armor and fighting or simply resting in God's presence, we need to be with God more - allowing him to come in and have every aspect of our being.
When we come to see the lies and replace them with the truth, and then live daily in this truth - well, that is where amazing things happen within us.
May God continue to transform us - from the inside out.
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