Questioning God's Goodness

I easily question God's goodness. I think this goes with knowing so little of what is truly good and right. There are so many things that I view as good, that I think would make me happy and delight my soul, yet when God has taken them away from me or said no to them I revolt.
Inside I cringe. I question whether God really loves me and would like me to be happy and joyful. I question whether those things, those desires within my soul which have burned for so long, have any reason, meaning or purpose. If you were to ask me if I believe God is good I would respond with a firm "yes." However, if you were to see me cringe, doubt, question and cry when God says "no" to me or see the fear when I take a step forward and doubt if God will lead me somewhere I enjoy you may question the practical reality of my "yes."
Yet God is flooring me with answers to prayer. I don't quite know what to do with it, with this taste of His goodness and grace. I was in a lunch meeting earlier this week with a woman who has agreed to mentor me this year. I was first off floored by the fact that she said yes (a huge answer to prayer) and second have been amazed with the intentionality with which she is approaching the mentorship. In the middle of this lunch meeting, watching and learning from her leading I got choked up. I am experiencing an answer to prayer lived out in front of me; I am experiencing God pouring out His goodness with abundant grace and all I can do is stand and receive and allow this to penetrate my heart and soul.
My prayer is that this will transform my heart attitude towards God and teach me to trust Him with the good as well as the bad; that He may always and fully be my delight.