One of my strange fears in leaning into grace was/is this sort of expectation that I would feel more free to sin - that somehow sin would be more appealing to me and would feel less guilty.
I don't know why some of these fears are there. I think it is in large part because I still do not fully believe so much of the Bible and the truth of the beauty and glory of God and just how good he is; that he is truly more to be desired then any sinful action or behavior.
I have found this blessedly true in one area of my life, in this one small little thing where I tend to go to chocolate for comfort maybe a little more then I should. I probably should not say maybe. I go to chocolate for comfort at times when I should not.
Yet, in realizing I am freely loved in Christ I have also started to realize something precious: that freedom is a freedom to be restrained in those sinful areas. It is a freedom where I am starting to see and treasure God's beauty and grace more and more and so I am able to say no to a sin that was before more appealing.
I hope and pray that the beauty and wonder of God's grace never ceases to amaze me.
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